The 31st of July. Today my dad should celebrate his 60th birthday. I miss him every single day but I try to cope with this loss – because of the meaning of the hour (3:00 pm of The Divine Mercy Devotion) & the day of his death (25th of December).
He caught a pneumonia problems but the health condition worsened. After week in hospital he got a circulatory collapse then, doctors began to fight about his life. Before, he supposed to leave hospital – he was fine but very weak and previously quite healthy. I still don’t know the main issue although they really had tried to find out. He became the hardest case in ICU. Doctors decided to put him in a pharmacological coma because he was exhausted by these complications since two weeks. At first, the kidneys stopped working, the other day the lungs and liver just switched off. Doctors couldn’t understand why dad’s system started to turn off; one thing after another. So, what stopped working it changed into quite destroyed. No reaction for any treatment. On the end, heart was sustained by many devices.
He was very talented artist and always valued the spiritual beauty in painting. He took me to the altar in the day of my wedding what happened just a few yrs ago. I expected him of hold my first baby. I am 30, I’ve never known he could die so early. Literally, the several times per day, I asked husband – please, pinch my arm cause I do not believe what’s happening. I still cannot describe a scale of my shock. I was overwhelmed by this. Father was saying me about the importance of being in sanctifying grace when the time will come. He wanted me to take care about. Anyway, I feel he disappeared – almost like the water on the desert. If God’s Will was saved him, I really believe he could save him.
I follow the words of Chiara Badano: Jesus, if you want it, I want it too. When she was 16 she was diagnosed with the osteogenic sarcoma, a painful bone cancer. She was beatified on September 25, 2010 at the Sanctuary of Our Lady of Divine Love in Rome. Her feast day is celebrated on October 29.